"Some gaze astonished at the deadly gift of Minerva the Virgin...

...and wonder at the horse's bulk."
-Virgil, The Aeneid

I think my latin teacher would be amazed that I remember my latin
prose from last year.. Considering I never bothered to learn it when I
needed to.

Those of you who know the Aeneid know it's a rip off of the Illiad by
Homer. Book 2 is all about the Trojan horse.

I'm sick of fighting with him. I just want him to go away. He messed
up bad and I don't want anything more to do with him. Can you blame
me?

I got a thank you card from the creative development kids I work with
at nursery. I can't help but be so proud of how much they've
progressed. I decided to stay and suprise them. They were so happy.
And naturally with 3 year olds any 'big girl' is married.

I have to go fill in some forms for leadership liason to give to my
headmistress in an our.. So I'm off.

Oh and if the formatting's kind of funny.. It's because I'm doing this
mobile blogging thing.

"Is Bitter there?...

...I'd rather talk to her than Disappointed."
-jonathan coulton, someone is crazy

People have been noticing how I'm different in different situations.
The other week with all the people I got on really well with, I was so
comfortable.. I trusted them! I am well known for my 'guilty until
proven innocent' attitude. I felt comfortable enough to tell them
things I've been afraid to admit to myself. Then I go back to school
and I change. I don't know how but I feel different. Like now I've had
a taste of belonging I can't survive anywhere else. It wasn't just the
rugby but that was really good. It was being pulled around not knowing
where we were going and making mistakes but not being made to feel
this small and ashamed. Running through stairwells with people whose
surnames I didn't even know. But it was terrifying. I didn't know
anyone at first. I was miles away from home.. I felt so vulnerable...
i suppose that made medlink so much easier to settle into. I wasn't
the only one alone. If it wasn't for those nights on the greens I
would have died. Now I need to find out when people are going to
medsim.

Thank you. To Ricardo especially. If it wasn't for you I would never
have found out about the late night rugby! Ah.. Sleeping in the center
corridors because we were locked out on the first night and drawing
all over Mortimer's face.

><

"Oh, to hell with it...

...I'm gonna have a party."
-nada surf, blankest year

Way to bring the bipolar chick down. (she said without any sarcasm at all, of course). I get a phone call. Turns out the drummer's girlfriend doesn't want me to join the band. And then they blame it on me. But how do they announce it? "You were great, I mean.. You were the best audition we've had for months. But we want all our members to be happy with our set up.. And sadly billy (the drummer) will have to leave if you join. And we don't appreciate you jepordising what we have worked on for almost a year." i asked what i'd done to offend billy and apparently i was dressed too immodestly for the atmosphere. IT WAS A PUNK BAND! Wearing a skirt 3cm above my knees and a long sleeved sweater is immodest to them apparently. Oh, and then he had the nerve to ask if I had any ideas for their name. They'd come up with mind comma open. Comma. How original.

If these are the creative minds I wanted to work with.. I'm going back to my ambition of being a doctor.

catching up on ancestor by scott sigler (already linked in another post so you find it or google it if you're impatient.). I wasn't in the pod-scene when it came out so I just know infection and the rookie (which is amazing by the way!) and I'm saving earthcore for next week.

I was into 7th son big time a while ago.. But then i found scott and i love his stuff so much. I want to give him a hug though because he seems really angry.. And in desperate need of huggage.

Go listen to him! His stuff's really violent.. But that makes it so much better.. And even if you don't understand the fake football (why'd you yanks have to steal the name for a sissy sport.. Against rugby.. And them rename the original game soccer. my one disappointment.) Scott explains and it's still really good. Even if you don't like sports it's got something for all the family! *ting!*
check it out.

go detroit lions! tee-hee! I could care less. I have three more things to do on my things to do before I'm 20 list and one is to see the all blacks play.

anyone who can score me tickets to nz as well as to the game? (it's only good if you see them play on their own turf.)

"A man with an obsession is a man who has very little sales resistance."

-C.S. Lewis

I'm trying to write my response to this but all I have in my head is
Novacane by Beck.

Everyone was asking about you today. I told them the truth... Which was a hell of a lot less scary than I thought it would be. Except when people responded rather overwhelmingly. I hastily switched the topic to the other week and all the antics we didn't get up to and no one could be bothered to.

I mean playing rugby on the greens outside the center and watching the girls scream when they doubted our aim and were sure we would knock them out.. Then they run away.. Unknowingly towards where the ball was meant to land. Of course there are benefits. The lynx adverts seem to work really well because the sweaty teenage guys... Didn't smell like sweaty teenage guys. And rugby at 1 am is the best. Of course the fact that my knees were mashed up meant that I wasn't on form but the pain was delicious.. And when the guys helped me back to my room because I was about to collapse.. And the one time I did and screamed there was a group of girls by the lake and they actually jumped and one fell into the lake.

I don't feel guilty. It was part curfew in their dorms. They should have known better.

And the little boy who thought I was a princess at the beginning because I was wearing a paper crown.

Oh, I wish I could in back there... just sans the crazy stalker guy who.. I'm afraid to say.. Wasn't affected by the lynx advert.

"Hearing what we want...

...is the secret to eternal youth."
-Shakira, Timor

Continually mocked for enjoying rugby (heaven forbid because I'm a
girl) I could just ignore it.. I've been playing long enough to
understand they're the stupid ones. I mean all my other non rugby guy
friends find it cute that I'm only 5' 4" (barely) and I'm the terror
of our team. Well it's not really a team.. We go to the greens and
play whoever's there. But big burly rugby players* are afraid to hit
this tiny sprinting girl. And i abuse this power. Why not?

*yes paul.. I know not all rugby players are big and burly but you are
a stick! That's just odd.

And yet when I can do a 100m sprint in 15 seconds they all praise me and then
when they understand it's all down to the rugby they shut up for a few
days.

I could just shut up about how much I love rugby.. i bring it on
myself.. But then horse girl could shut up about lola her goddamn
chestnut mare.

You don't need a gun to kill me.

"Now I'm so sick of being lonely...

...This is killing me so slowly."
-McFly, Lonely

Yes, I gave in. I've been with the boys from the start and no matter
how tacky they get I can't resist them. They are my very guilty
pleasure. Motion in the Ocean. I just thank god that Tom's shirtless
in only one photo. Then I might be put off. My favourite track is
Silence is a scary sound.

Only... All my friends have gone off them so I can't go to their gigs.
I'm not going on my own. So I guess I'm not going. Though the guy at
HMV said awesome when I gave it in at the till. In a non mocking way.
I know because I said (rather disbelievingly) "Seriously?" and he said
his favourite track is Transylvania and if told of how to find the
bonus track.

Ok the stray alsation is scratching at my door again. I really should
call the RSPCA but he's so damn cute and he's actually pretty tame for
an alsation. I've called him Bert.

"The glove compartment is inaccurately named...

...and everybody knows it."
-death cab for cutie, Title and Registration

people are idiots. people depend on other people too much. They depend
on you not to cry. They depend on you to laugh when you're in the
worst pain imaginable. They tell you everything will be alright when
you all know it won't be, just so you can concentrate on their
problems.

The human race sucks. We may not all be like that. Otherwise where
would all the Ghandis and Mother Teresas come from. We are taught to
be ashamed of ourselves so we stay grounded. Maybe what we really
should be taught is acceptance.

Maybe next time they run off wanting to be alone, let them.

"As drunken men find flaws in science...

...Their words mostly noises"
-Snow Patrol, Set The Fire To The Third Bar

When we were young we felt so old
When we were old we felt so dead
When we were dead we wished we were alive
And then when I saw you I was born again.

"You ruined everything...

...In the nicest way"
- jonathan coulton, you ruined everything.

and you did. You made me into the person i despise but the twisted thing was was that i was happy. I accept it. I'm not a nice person. But you made me understand that some people like that. Like you. Except you changed. It's as though you became someone else. You forgot who you were.

i still don't think you've remembered.

><

Jonathan Coulton (Musician)

Scott Sigler (Author)

"Friendship is the only cement that will ever hold the world together."

- woodrow wilson.

Well Mr. Wilson, I have a bone to pick with you. I forgot all about them. I bonded with people who don't even know my surname better than i do with people i've known for years.


I know I'm meant to be with these people. Though he keeps on springing into mind.

Well if Mr. Wilson is right then that explains why my world is falling apart.